Made a blog once.. deleted it... jus' had no time to upkeep it.
But another blogger's suggestion, (you know who you are, and thanx...) started me thinking, that maybe I should restart it... just to let the world see how yup, it's possible, how a real typical Lubav gal is just so happy to be who she is... ;)
Ok, so in short: I am a 20-year old Lubavitch girl, on Shlichus.... living the life I love!
For now, I am more content with leaving my 2 cents worth on some other ppl's blogs, then posting my life story up here... But I'll post excerpts from comments I've left elsewhere... pretty much sums up what woulda been my posts.
I've been Lubavitch all my life. I never was able to appreciate what I had, given the attitude around me... but it's really true what they say- go to seminary and grow up. So I did. And now I'm ready to take the world on.... get ready, here I come! I will actualize my highest potential by using all my talents for a higher purpose- to serve the Almighty... how beautifully, deliciously simple and clear. How come I was never able to see that before? Hashem, only please help me stay on the straight and narrow...
[..]
... I myself come from a very strong Lubav background.. but regardless... that's how I was in High School. Everyone else's opinions became my own, I just followed the flow, I was whatever you wanted me to be, I was searching, fighting, looking and angry... I felt stifled, so restricted and limited... what if I didn't want to fit into the mold created for me?
But then, in sem, I finally came to it... I let myself open up, let myself be receptive, let myself feel the warmth and love, and let myself realize just how lucky we really are! For the first time, I became a proud Chabad Chassid. I suddenly saw that what I had always thought was being stuffed down my throat was really the only way I could live. For once, the questions and doubting and fighting in me died away...
Now, Shlichus is my life... it is who I am, who I want to be, and I am ever so confident that the road I am on is taking me to where I want to go, that this way of life is the only way I can live, and I know that if you live a life in which you take all you were given, all your energies and abilities and talents, and you give it all selflessly back to your Creator, who gave it to you in the first place... only then, can you finally find yourself, be at peace with yourself, be happy, calm and settled and sure that you want to be on the path you're on for the next 100 years.
[...]
Being a Shliach is heeding your life's calling.... Cuz you only lead a life that is truly fulfilling when you take whatever talents, energies and strengths that G-d gave you and give them back to Him- instead of growing up and becoming another one of the 10000 Jewish lawyers out there- we need more strong Jewish influences in the world... think of what you have to give, not to keep... No! your life's calling is higher than a self-centered 9-to-5 job, beacuse you have the necessary talents to do more.... think of why you're here on this world. Just my opinion.
[...]
Sometimes, your goals aren't reached, and you call it the death of a dream.... when in reality you are really simple locking yourself up in a pair of golden handcuffs… You think you know where you’re going; and you tell yourself and the world: I know my goal, I see it, I will get there no matter what…
But then suddenly, things change, and the goal you set for yourself originally isn't for you any more…so then you need to know…to drop it. By sticking stubbornly to your goal/trap that you set for yourself, you are not being determined and clear-headed... you are just being plain stupid. You are blocking out all other options and opportunities, refusing to see how much better you can get, all for the sake of sticking to your dreams… you think it is holding on that makes you strong; but oftentimes, it is more in letting go.
[...]
Judaism is so phenomenal and beautiful… I can't explain how much I love being Jewish! I urge you, go and discover that precious, beautiful present that Hashem gave us, go appreciate it... never stop learning the beauty and depth of Torah! Torah is life, Torah is everything.
Learn some Chassidus.... it is mind-boggling. It changes your outlook on everything, if you let it affect you properly. You let yourself get filled with such a love and awe and warmth for Hashem, for the Torah... and you realize that there is so much you can't know and understand, but Hashem still has His Master Plan and knows what He’s doing!
And never take anything in the Torah only at face value... there is so much hidden beneath the surface… learn the secrets of Torah, drink from the pure waters of our life-giving Torah… Learn Tanya daily. It is translated in English phenomenally, in a set of 5 books, called Lessons in Tanya … I can tell you that it seriously keeps me going… it’s absolute beauty…
[...]
... so then remember that there are many ways to get to the same place. Listen to your heart and mind. Which way are you pulled? Find the path that’s good for you, and then choose that way with all your strength. Get someone that really knows you to help you onto the path best for you... in other words... yes- a Mashpia.
[...]
... but you gotta know that you alone are responsible for your actions... It won’t help you to blame your environment, your parents, your school, your friends… you are responsible for you… who else is better qualified?At a certain point in your growing up stage, you have to look at your parents, thank them for where they’ve gotten you and all the tremendous good they’ve given you…. and then decide for yourself about what you do or don't want to take from them for your own life, and your own kids I’’YH. Gosh, your parents are only about as human as you are…
[...]
You will fulfill your highest potential when you are doing what you’ve been put on this world to do- serve Hashem. If your talents are going to be taking you away from the right path, find a different channel for them…
Torah is eternal, it is fixed, it does not move. Everything else should revolve around it… make Torah your life....
[...]
It’s unbelievable how much I’ve gained from seminary. For the first time in my life, I am proud to be Jewish, frum and Lubavitch; I just love it so much!! I’ve finally let my guard down and let myself be receptive and now I appreciate so much what I’ve had all along... I can finally see the beauty and depth inherent in Yiddishkeit and especially in Chabad Chassidus.
I am composed and at peace with myself, happy with the decisions I've made in life. I am strong and self-assured, and so confident that the road I’m headed on is taking me to where I want to get. I believe in myself fiercely, I am at peace within myself, I can be myself without caring if anyone thinks I’m a Chassidish nerd, and I am finally secure and at ease with everything that I always thought was being forced down my throat…
Cuz you see, all through my advanced years of high school, I had been plagued with an identity crisis. I used to wonder- who am I anyway? If I would have just been plopped down into this world identity-less, would I have chosen to be me, where I am now? Am I being this way, Lubavitch, Jewish etc, only cuz it’s been forced on me my whole life and I know no other way? And what if I don't want to fit into the mold that’s been created for all of us, what if I want to be different- why do I have to do whatever everyone’s always done? I would feel like I just wanted to use and channel all my talents and energies, but had no outlet... and it bothered me like nuts. I needed to find out for myself who I was, who I wanted to be and where I wanted life to take me…
But now, Boruch Hashem, for the first time ever- I found it. I had it all along. I finally know who I am. I don't feel that restlessness anymore. I am C** **** ( sorry for the secrecy) , it’s as simple as that! That is me, that is who I am! I am Lubavitch, I am Chassidish, I am a Shliach and I am ever so proud of it, and I will IMY’’H give back to Hashem what He’s given me and actualize my highest potential by using my talents to serve Him… Till then, I was afraid to use what I had. But now, I’ve found out that I can influence and affect others in tremendous ways... I’ve found out that I am worth something .... as soon as you start using all your talents for G-d, making your life for Him, then all questions die away.
Every Jew's mission in life is to spread more of G-d's light, each in their own way, depending on thier talents, personalities and characters... only then, can you fulfil the reason of your creation, and live a satisfying, complete life. It's as simple as that.
[............]
Sorry if some of the posts are repetitious. But anyhow....
Zu Rak Da'ati... dos is nor vos ich tracht.... appena il mio parere... apenas mi opinión.... juste mon avis....
Just my opinion. Lemme know what you think.
PS- If you've figured out who I am, please don't post my name in the comments... thanx.
But another blogger's suggestion, (you know who you are, and thanx...) started me thinking, that maybe I should restart it... just to let the world see how yup, it's possible, how a real typical Lubav gal is just so happy to be who she is... ;)
Ok, so in short: I am a 20-year old Lubavitch girl, on Shlichus.... living the life I love!
For now, I am more content with leaving my 2 cents worth on some other ppl's blogs, then posting my life story up here... But I'll post excerpts from comments I've left elsewhere... pretty much sums up what woulda been my posts.
I've been Lubavitch all my life. I never was able to appreciate what I had, given the attitude around me... but it's really true what they say- go to seminary and grow up. So I did. And now I'm ready to take the world on.... get ready, here I come! I will actualize my highest potential by using all my talents for a higher purpose- to serve the Almighty... how beautifully, deliciously simple and clear. How come I was never able to see that before? Hashem, only please help me stay on the straight and narrow...
[..]
... I myself come from a very strong Lubav background.. but regardless... that's how I was in High School. Everyone else's opinions became my own, I just followed the flow, I was whatever you wanted me to be, I was searching, fighting, looking and angry... I felt stifled, so restricted and limited... what if I didn't want to fit into the mold created for me?
But then, in sem, I finally came to it... I let myself open up, let myself be receptive, let myself feel the warmth and love, and let myself realize just how lucky we really are! For the first time, I became a proud Chabad Chassid. I suddenly saw that what I had always thought was being stuffed down my throat was really the only way I could live. For once, the questions and doubting and fighting in me died away...
Now, Shlichus is my life... it is who I am, who I want to be, and I am ever so confident that the road I am on is taking me to where I want to go, that this way of life is the only way I can live, and I know that if you live a life in which you take all you were given, all your energies and abilities and talents, and you give it all selflessly back to your Creator, who gave it to you in the first place... only then, can you finally find yourself, be at peace with yourself, be happy, calm and settled and sure that you want to be on the path you're on for the next 100 years.
[...]
Being a Shliach is heeding your life's calling.... Cuz you only lead a life that is truly fulfilling when you take whatever talents, energies and strengths that G-d gave you and give them back to Him- instead of growing up and becoming another one of the 10000 Jewish lawyers out there- we need more strong Jewish influences in the world... think of what you have to give, not to keep... No! your life's calling is higher than a self-centered 9-to-5 job, beacuse you have the necessary talents to do more.... think of why you're here on this world. Just my opinion.
[...]
Sometimes, your goals aren't reached, and you call it the death of a dream.... when in reality you are really simple locking yourself up in a pair of golden handcuffs… You think you know where you’re going; and you tell yourself and the world: I know my goal, I see it, I will get there no matter what…
But then suddenly, things change, and the goal you set for yourself originally isn't for you any more…so then you need to know…to drop it. By sticking stubbornly to your goal/trap that you set for yourself, you are not being determined and clear-headed... you are just being plain stupid. You are blocking out all other options and opportunities, refusing to see how much better you can get, all for the sake of sticking to your dreams… you think it is holding on that makes you strong; but oftentimes, it is more in letting go.
[...]
Judaism is so phenomenal and beautiful… I can't explain how much I love being Jewish! I urge you, go and discover that precious, beautiful present that Hashem gave us, go appreciate it... never stop learning the beauty and depth of Torah! Torah is life, Torah is everything.
Learn some Chassidus.... it is mind-boggling. It changes your outlook on everything, if you let it affect you properly. You let yourself get filled with such a love and awe and warmth for Hashem, for the Torah... and you realize that there is so much you can't know and understand, but Hashem still has His Master Plan and knows what He’s doing!
And never take anything in the Torah only at face value... there is so much hidden beneath the surface… learn the secrets of Torah, drink from the pure waters of our life-giving Torah… Learn Tanya daily. It is translated in English phenomenally, in a set of 5 books, called Lessons in Tanya … I can tell you that it seriously keeps me going… it’s absolute beauty…
[...]
... so then remember that there are many ways to get to the same place. Listen to your heart and mind. Which way are you pulled? Find the path that’s good for you, and then choose that way with all your strength. Get someone that really knows you to help you onto the path best for you... in other words... yes- a Mashpia.
[...]
... but you gotta know that you alone are responsible for your actions... It won’t help you to blame your environment, your parents, your school, your friends… you are responsible for you… who else is better qualified?At a certain point in your growing up stage, you have to look at your parents, thank them for where they’ve gotten you and all the tremendous good they’ve given you…. and then decide for yourself about what you do or don't want to take from them for your own life, and your own kids I’’YH. Gosh, your parents are only about as human as you are…
[...]
You will fulfill your highest potential when you are doing what you’ve been put on this world to do- serve Hashem. If your talents are going to be taking you away from the right path, find a different channel for them…
Torah is eternal, it is fixed, it does not move. Everything else should revolve around it… make Torah your life....
[...]
It’s unbelievable how much I’ve gained from seminary. For the first time in my life, I am proud to be Jewish, frum and Lubavitch; I just love it so much!! I’ve finally let my guard down and let myself be receptive and now I appreciate so much what I’ve had all along... I can finally see the beauty and depth inherent in Yiddishkeit and especially in Chabad Chassidus.
I am composed and at peace with myself, happy with the decisions I've made in life. I am strong and self-assured, and so confident that the road I’m headed on is taking me to where I want to get. I believe in myself fiercely, I am at peace within myself, I can be myself without caring if anyone thinks I’m a Chassidish nerd, and I am finally secure and at ease with everything that I always thought was being forced down my throat…
Cuz you see, all through my advanced years of high school, I had been plagued with an identity crisis. I used to wonder- who am I anyway? If I would have just been plopped down into this world identity-less, would I have chosen to be me, where I am now? Am I being this way, Lubavitch, Jewish etc, only cuz it’s been forced on me my whole life and I know no other way? And what if I don't want to fit into the mold that’s been created for all of us, what if I want to be different- why do I have to do whatever everyone’s always done? I would feel like I just wanted to use and channel all my talents and energies, but had no outlet... and it bothered me like nuts. I needed to find out for myself who I was, who I wanted to be and where I wanted life to take me…
But now, Boruch Hashem, for the first time ever- I found it. I had it all along. I finally know who I am. I don't feel that restlessness anymore. I am C** **** ( sorry for the secrecy) , it’s as simple as that! That is me, that is who I am! I am Lubavitch, I am Chassidish, I am a Shliach and I am ever so proud of it, and I will IMY’’H give back to Hashem what He’s given me and actualize my highest potential by using my talents to serve Him… Till then, I was afraid to use what I had. But now, I’ve found out that I can influence and affect others in tremendous ways... I’ve found out that I am worth something .... as soon as you start using all your talents for G-d, making your life for Him, then all questions die away.
Every Jew's mission in life is to spread more of G-d's light, each in their own way, depending on thier talents, personalities and characters... only then, can you fulfil the reason of your creation, and live a satisfying, complete life. It's as simple as that.
[............]
Sorry if some of the posts are repetitious. But anyhow....
Zu Rak Da'ati... dos is nor vos ich tracht.... appena il mio parere... apenas mi opinión.... juste mon avis....
Just my opinion. Lemme know what you think.
PS- If you've figured out who I am, please don't post my name in the comments... thanx.
posted by LubaGal at 2:30 AM
30 Comments:
Tzadeikess!!! Do good and be good.
We need more like you!
Do you really speak all of those languages?
Can I ask you an honest question- Do you feel like you took more out of the intellectual part of seminary {guys will never understand that whole concept, whatdya learn there anyways} or from the excitement of what was done there, trips, activities, etc.???
lubagal- all's too true.
Thanks for visting my blog and restoring yours.. I dont have time right now, to read everything you wrote, but IYH I will as soon as I can..Welcome back..
just wondering- which high school and seminary did you attend? I am wondering because it seems like the seminary you attended really affected you, and the high school you attended really didn't.
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Number one, the word indocrinating has been repeated too much in the blog world resently, let's find a synonym to change the trend.
Number two, I know this might not technically be accurate, but I don't believe that you can be "indoctrinated" in seminary, especially following a bout of rebeliousness before that. I believe that you reach a certain age, and most people have surely reached it by 18, where your doing is no longer by default but rather by choice. You minght subscribe to certain beliefs, and even those that you have been "indoctrinated" with until now, but you are now at a stage of discovery.
It is no secret. You need not look further than the streets of most every Jewish neighborhood in Brooklyn. If it was truly, as you dubbed it, indoctrination, than why do so many kids go off? Indoctrination has apparently failed. And the greatest proof of the frailty of this is that kids are still frum, despite the many who still plague them with their presence. It's not as if they haven't been exposed to anything otherwise {that has been flushed away long ago in most communities}.
I am convinced that by and by, we are Jewish, Chassidish or whatever it is by choice and not by indoctrination. If anyone wants to leave they have many opportunities {albeit with a bit of initial discomfort}. There are plenty who already have left and told their teachers, parents, friends, etc. where to jump off.
For someone who is somewhat skeptic, absolute belief is foreign. It irritates someone to hear a declaration of faith, it is for them doubtful that someone could find integral truth. Faith comes with discovery, and that is the ideals of seminary/yeshiva. For some it works and for others, they're still bothered afterwards.
I don't imagine that seeing reality affects belief, maybe just excitement towards it. The longer your gone, the more bummed you might get, but that doesn't have happen or change the truth of how you once felt.
I'll admit that I had similar feelings reading this for the first time. I thought that this girl is unreal {I was thinking blown- sorry, my Yetzer Harah} and in a hole. Then I realized that some people are just blessed with true faith.
Always happy to vouchsafe!
Ok, for starters-
NEMO- Wow! So true... you answered Frum But Thinking in waaay better words than I ever could have... and I'll take it as a compliment taht you initially thought I was wacked... but ya, I guess you can say I have what's called true belief, which hasn't been affected by seeing reality...
Anyhow- to answer your first q- the sem I went to was really not very exciting- not into the trips and activities, and the learning was ok- really not the best around-pretty great, but really not the highest standard...
I actually was so negative when I first got there, I just couldn't be bothered... but really, I feel I gained as soon as I put myself into everything- actually listening in classes insead of playing boggle and sleeping, participating in get-togethers and Farbrengens... and it really was so- at one Farbrengen I just finally let myself actually FEEL... and that's where the change came about... so I guess your answer is- it was really just letting myself feel the atmosphere, the Chassidishe Avir, taking out of everything there was.
WANDERING- I'd rather not give details... I want to protect my anonymity- if you really want, email me at lubagal770 at hotmail dot com with your real info... maybe I know you!
But anyhow- you're right- my high school turned me off and my sem, while really not the greatest- it was really up to me what to make of it- some girls grew and some others really fell... but that's where I grew the most... Quite honestly though, I feel like it really all just rounded off when I went off on Shlichus- that's where I was able to use it all, practical, Halacha L'maase- that's when I feel likee I completed the journey.
And FRUM BUT THINKING- see what I wrote to Wandering... and Nemo said it too well- but I been out of sem now for over a year and a half, and I only feel it more and more each day... only by leaving my daled amos of seminary and going out into the real world, did it all totally fall into place! I'm not really stuck on the sem high anymore.
It's so important to fully be at peace with yourself when you go out to affect others, and especially once you start dating... (you gotta know yourself and love yourself before you can consider getting married and dragging all your baggage in with you.).. what do you find wrong with that?
There's something incredibly beautiful about just being so happy with who you are before you go out and start your life.
I can promise you, I am far from stuck in my own little world.. far far from it. I think I see it all quite clearly...
lubagal, u gave me some food 4 thought.. there really aren't many ppl who are comforatble with who they are etc- nice!
See how much you can learn on Shlichus! ;)
great that you restarted your blogging!
Welcome back!
To see clips from Chabad bloggers around the globe check out:
http://chabadspot.blogspot.com
You're in there too!
Lubagirl,
I guess I came off rather strong in my other message, so i'm retracting it. It was late and...
I guess we went to different kinds of Sem's. And perhaps indoctrination is not the right word for it, it is pressurized influance, and Nemo- indoctrination does not ALWAYS work.
I guess I am just not used to people being really comfortable with themselves...
But if you say so- I believe you.
Hmmm....
'Preciate that FBT... and I hope you can come to it yourself one day soon... :)
Thanks for visiting. Good luck with your blog.
lubagal-
your blog is really nice, and your comments have a nice consistent rhythm to them, throughout.
but i have to say- i've never heard anyone assert their own happiness and self-peace as much as you have. if i would count the times that you've reasserted and reiterated... it kind of makes me think.
can i just say, that i'm not on shlichus now, and i feel very happy and at peace with myself as well?
and can i say, that it's OK to struggle; its OK to harbor dichotomies; it's OK to question, to be unsure, to break, to grow, to stumble, to arise, to clench your teeth in frustration, and to release them in peace?
do you know that self-esteem is not in porportion to questioning and struggling; one is not the barometer of the other?
why are you so full of disclaimers? whats the big deal? what are you scared of? why the sense of forced euphoria?
A lot of people are proud to be lubavitch, love it, feel it, believe in it... but we all know that's not enough. Seminary year might serve to authenticate, corroborate and substantiate all these ideas, but then what..? I'ts a two sided coin, ahavat hashem must be underpinned by yirat hashem, because they are of equal (albiet each with their own distinct ma-alot) importance relative to avodat hashem. There's alot of love in this world, and many people will share your sentiments of warmth and love for chassidus and yiddishkite- but thats the easy part. High-school, seminary, shlichus, these are not the things that make you a good person (or even a good lubavitcher) its the hard parts that make the difference.
Hmmm.. where to begin?
Ok- Homosapien.... I see where you coming from... and recently I've been thinking about it a lot too- I was thinking to start a post on it- indeed, why is it that only when I feel like I am contributing to society do I feel like a person? How bout those times that I am not on Shlichus, persay... can I still be happy with who I am? .... and having recently had my fair share of ups and downs, of challenges and frustartions... I done a lot of thinking. Why do I feel the need to assert myslef so strongly? Why do I have to be like- look, I am happy and calm, I tell you - I am!
After chewin it over a while, I think it might boil down to this.... so as I said, I had an extremely turbulent "teenage-hood"... I was rebellious and questioning, and so searching searching searching everywhere, and no one would give me the plain answers I needed... I felt so suffocated and restless, and I fear I may have fully "gone-off" had I not finally "found myself" before.... so maybe I am so assertive now because even myself soemtimes I can't believe I've found it... am I really so lucky? It's the first time in my life that I feel settled,. It's the first time in my life that I feel complete. and it's just like HEY. THIS IS COOL. I'M NOT RUNNING ANYMORE.
These posts were written over a year ago, but even so... even now I dunno if I would rewrite tehm... beacsue at the same time, all throughout m'life, since my journey of self-discovery, even with these challneges and hurdles, I have a feeling that I am finally the me I should be, that G-d created me to be. Maybe I do have self-esteem issues, since I only feel like a person when I am productive? So I guess I gotta work on that... but then again, I still would never give it up, give up that plain-out euphoria of being who you are, even along with my regesh nechitut issues.
What do you think?
Ok- and Grajee- I think true love brings to Yiras Hashem. When you honestly love Hashem, His Torah and Mitzvos and who you are able to be when you do them.... then out of full-on respect, you can truly fear G-d. I am not there yet, but I do hope to be.. and I think that it does help to start out on that journey with that love, with that feeling, first. Life's not easy. Of course you are not a good Jew just by the feelings, and the hard parts are what life is made from, where a person's true potential really shines... I do agree.
sorry but i have a question, um writing on blogs between boys and girls is ok? like hello would you ever email a guy? just curious
LOL- anon I been wondering bout that myself lately- it's funny how it doesnt seem to be an issue, isn't it? ... anyhow, I've left the blogger world a while ago, stopped putting my 2 cents worth in anywhere, just leaving behind this blog.
wow, you are so inspiring. i'm a bt teen who's now lubavitch and i can totally relate to what you're saying about finally finding yourself etc. i think i will read your blog every time i'm a little low on inspiration.
"Learn Tanya daily. It is translated in English phenomenally, in a set of 5 books, called Lessons in Tanya … I can tell you that it seriously keeps me going… it’s absolute beauty…"
maybe im just ignorant.. i havent really learnt much chassidus although i grew up in a lubavitch home and went to a lubavitch school.. everyone goes on and on about how amazing tanya is.. ive learnt bits and peices of it here and there and i once tried to read lessons in tanya... i dunno maybe im just looking in the wrong places or something but i dont get the beauty of it. i just dont find anything in it (of what ive seen so far) anything inspiring or mindboggling.
anon-
the standards that the AR holds up to us, and the way it is supported by a systematic, rational, mystical structure, is totally beautiful and brilliant.
thats exactly what im saying i dont get! explain me some of the beauty... anything i've read or heard is nothing special or boring
have you ever learnt the tanya alot at a time, as a continuos flowing idea? as a well-built focused structure?
ill tell you what i find fascinating.
- the way the AR builds a clear coherent structure of the spiritual psyche of a person.
the spiritual infrastructure that the AR builds rivals the physical infrastructure in its complexity and beauty.
- the standards which the AR sets for us are so incredibly high, yet you understand how it can be no other away. i think its awesome and amazing.
- the way the AR views the jew in the context of the cosmos.
besides for the microcosm, i.e. the beautiful infrastructure within a person, he also sets up the macrocosm, i.e. the parallel infrastructure of the cosmos in general, and he shows how both are part of one master plan.
its hard relate the beauty of the tanya. you have to learn it as a coherent doctrine, with a message to you. not as another jewish study about random terms and rules.
its still all the same i've been hearing before.. but ur right i gotta learn it propably .. thanx anyway
no kiddin' u gotta learn it. g'luck
Jews For Tanya- you got it!
Anon.. I used to be like that too. Grew up in a Lubavitch home, went to a Lubavitch school, yet never felt an iota of anything for Tanya and Chassidus. Never appreciated its beauty... But especially after being 'out there' in the world... it makes you appreciate so much what you were taught all those years in school, underlying everything.
To me, after rediscovering it, Chassidus and Tanya is all about love, life, warmth, excitement! It's about understanding why you do the things you do and loving the way of life you have chosen to live.
It's about clarity... knowing that you are here on this world to refine and elevate it, that your footsteps are ordained by G-d, knowing that every single tiny little thing that happens is for a reason, that every single story in Tanach has so much behind it, and understanding a Jew's unebelievably strong and deep connection with Hashem...
Got this from Chabad.org:
Chabad Chassidus is an all-embracing world outlook and way of life which sees the Jew's central purpose as a unifying link between the Creator and His world. Written by the Alter Rebbe, the founder of Chabad, Tanya is the central text of Chabad Chassidus. It shows the reader a path to realizing their purpose and developing a deeper relationship with G-d.
Wednesday's Hayom Yom was this: Chassidus is Divine intelligence, an understanding which shows man how small he is, and how great he can become.
I think that says it better than I can... Chassidus is just so meaningful and can touch you so deelpy, if you only learn it correctly.
Great site!
Kol Hakavod.
Im also curious what seminary you went to.. i think i can relate.
about shluchos - keep up the great work..
im looking into shluchos myself (as a possibility)
Hey, this is about a year after you've posted this entry. (3-11-07) Wonder if you still feel the same way. Would love to know if it was a phase, or if it still holds true.
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